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BALLS - Posted on FACEBOOK on 08/06/11

there does exist a reality tunnel in which most of us can get out of. to this i say *burp. why be depressed when you can be happy? dumb when you can be smart? agitated when you can be tranquil?

"my problems are not your problems," they tell me.

i just shrug my shoulders. i say, "yeah, well, balls."

this is when they make a face. shake their heads. walk away. that's my answer for everything now. balls.

BALLS!

it doesn't make sense, i know. but that's the point. none of it does. drowning in guilt. thinking about what could have been done. what should have been done. maybe life could be spent better. maybe the past can stay in the past. maybe the answer is, there is no answer.

maybe balls makes perfect sense.

To Want To Have To

i hope you like this song. i'm sure you'll tell me that you don't care. i hope you look up at the sky and see a ufo while you sit on your chair. then look down and you'll find me, so low under your glance. looking calm and listening to that song you don't like. maybe you'll join me on the floor where i smoke out these ants. i ask, why does she smile when she thinks? i see you shake your head off as if it the thought was too much. i want to know if you don't know these things. cause there's really no love without some lust. no feelings without emotions. no tricks without illusions. i want to say yes and agree but we argue over solutions. i want to toss you around and bounce you off the wall. just for one second, please, may you play with your imagination and forget about it all. there is this place that i don't know much about. i would like to go there. and i want to meet people that will say things that don't make much sense but sound like they care. i have no up or down. i need you to know what this means. it's like wanting to listen while you speak over me. it's like traveling to some other country and killing for peace. i want to play as well but know that i hate to want to have to lose. i want you make a face and tell yourself that was confusing. i have no explanation. i don't give them when i'm losing. know that all these things matter and that they really don't. i want you to ignore it all and maybe you'll laugh at them later but hoping you won't. maybe for now you'll feel the wind hug you and the sun bathe you. maybe for now you'll choose love over fear. asking yourself, why, out of all places, did he choose to be here? i see now expectations will get us nowhere outside of what's right or what's wrong. so here we are with nothing to do but to listen to this damn song.

Real Eyes. Realize. Real Lies.

cause everyone fears the same biblical, lyrical end. they pretend to have the answers but it's someone else's words they die to defend. so don't believe you offend when you question all of them like how does lack of evidence make for spirital amends? see their falsity make them friends before the truth tear apart their hands.

it don't make sense how time slows and exilurates. let the world force your senses to get proper framed. we drive fast cars so why do we remain in the same plane? You see me calling in on the count of rain? there's no need for umbrellas. ella. no need for you to hail to mr. rockafeller. ella. get your hands out my pockets or you'll meet the beretta. ella. ella. get it? eh. eh.

now who's the bigger seller? pharmaceutical companies want to make you better so they can get you later.  you missing some C? no, you missing these Ds. so you become  guinea pigs and letthese pigs make big? you submit and you willingly walk that line. the poor result of allowing fear blind your sight. cause to have blind faith means to be opened to it all with a closed mind.

but realize that inside are the answers you've been trying to find. real eyes become aware that we're different lives that combine. we have the same enemy. we hear the same lies. so don't be surprised when you catch them in disguise. watch the world halt in awe as they watch angels fall from the skies.

True Presidents

abraham lincoln was elected to congress in 1846.

john kennedy was elected to congress in 1946.

abraham lincoln was elected president in 1860.

john kennedy was elected president in 1960.

 

the names, lincoln and kennedy, both contain 7 letters.

both presidents were particularly concern with civil rights.

both the presidents wives lost children while living in the white house.

both presidents were shot on a friday, in the head.

 

president lincoln's secretary was named, ms. kennedy.

president kennedy's secretary was named, ms. lincoln.

 

both were assassinated by southerners.

both were succeded by southerners.

andrew johnson, who succeded lincoln, was born in 1808.

lyndon johnson, who succeded kennedy, was born in 1908.

 

john wilkes booth, who assassinated lincoln, was born in 1839.

lee harvey oswald, who assassinated kennedy, was born in 1939.

boh of their names are comprised of 13 letters.

 

president lincoln was shot in theatre named ford.

president kennedy was shot in a car named lincoln, made by ford.

 

booth, ran from a theatre and was caught at a warehouse.

oswald, ran from a warehouse and was caught at a theatre.

booth and oswald were both assassinated before they could go to trial.

 

&

 

a week before lincoln was shot, he was in monroe, maryland.

a week before kennedy was shot, he was in marilyn monroe.

Getting Rid of Bugs

Drop two or three cigarette butts in a quart of warm water, let sit overnight, strain, and spray on troubling areas. Repeat after six days.

The butts contain nicotine sulfate, which kills any bug--mite, aphid, you name it. 

See What I Mean?

 

Kill Me Cause I Forgot What I Was Doing

Work.

Consume.

Work because you consumed.

Consume because you worked for it.

The more you work, the more you will consume.

Get it?

You Exist

there is nothing in the universe that will ever contradict your existence. if you didn't need to exist, trust me, you wouldn't. so therefore, know that you exist. don't deny it. don't try to fight it. you don't have explain why you're here because you already are. you've already arrived, here. and there's nothing you can do about that. you are all concsiousness in a two leg-get form. it's so simple. so powerful. that truth. that beauty. that love. for you to be able to know that you exist.

Ley Lines

one of the most enduring earth mysteries. a network of prehistoric pathways criss-crossing the country, some believe them to have mystical significance.

ley lines are alignments and patterns of powerful, invisible earth energy. they are said to connect various sacred sites, such as churches, temples, stone circles, megaliths, holy wells, burial sites, and other locations of spiritual or magical importance.

major prehistoric structures of higher importance can frequently be found to occupy locations where two or more leys intersect with each other.

alleged ley lines are often identified by spiritualists "dowsing" with rods.

such methods are questionable in their accuracy, so the alleged placing of ley lines should be treated with some skepticism...

... but this is all based on geometry. hyperdimensional grid effects.

#2 On the List - Make REAL Connections

#2 Make real connections

i was so focused on making my place look like ikea suggested. i was trying to be proper and modern. everything had to be a certain color. shit had to match, right? my place always felt empty while filled. it dawned on me that it had no soul. no inspiration. it was awkward. then i stopped caring. "it" makes you do that.

got rid of the tv stand. got rid of the bed frame. i brought things down to my level. simplified things. i wanted less and less. step one was about that. step two is to obtain what matters. connections. "they can't be broken by time or space." - C. So come in, relax. wipe your feet. or don't wipe your feet. who cares?

nothing's expected. just be. here. now. let's answer the questions that truly matter. like, who brought the ganja and who's going to roll up a zig-zag?

Phase 3

when they colonize a part of the world, they do not leave. they do not decolonize. until and unless they have put in place institutions which will insure that THAT society will continue to be ruled by them. and in the process, they seek to transform the rest of mankind into copies of themselves. this has never happened before in history.

if i do not seek to understand what's happening here then i got peanuts in my head! when will i WAKE UP?! When will the world mean more to me than McDonald's Hamburgers?!

Knowing What I Know

now i’m not going home tonight, knowing what i know. i rather we create something out of nothing. never assume that there’s a moment that is to come because i’m not interested in hearing your complaints when such things happen.

i’m not out to find peace in these so called harsh times. i plan to break up, breakdown and breakthrough. never fear the conclusion of your years  or of the elusion that's been presented to you.

when you're free from that which you can’t control, no longer will you have to improve yourself or your skill. when you find that which lurks deep inside of you, we can then be more vicious than a pack of wolves, going in for the kill.

knowing what I know, desperation can become passion. totally letting go means taking total control. therefore, when you lose it before the all seeing eye, hiding your only truth at that point, means hiding your soul.

Believe You're Human

Whether we believe in psychic ability, crystal energy, alien abduction, talking to the dead, signs of the Zodiac or Christianity, we are rightly or wrongly buying into a very powerful belief system.

Now, I’m not interesting in attacking anyone’s beliefs but I think as intelligent human beings we should be prepared to question our beliefs and the people who encourage us to make life decisions based on the information they give us.

Life is all about questioning. But there are beliefs we’re not encourage to question and these are often the beliefs upon which we’re ask to make important life decisions. These are the areas where we should test and look for missed information and where the big names in those fields should apply the same rigor. Caused often we’re making those life decisions based on the information we get from those people.

Therefore, I’m beginning to see that people’s beliefs are not the real issue here. Whether you believe in creation or evolution they’re both still two sides of the same coin. They’re both still believes. They all help as links for our psyche to relate to our own spirituality and to help understand the “reality” of our own lives. And certainly the people who have those beliefs, who are getting that information and forming their lives based on that information, these are not the people to go at. These are not the people to laugh at.

Every conscious of every being is part of All That Is. That’s why so many religions and practices exist. They are multiple expressions of All That Is. It is the people who are putting the beliefs out there and enforcing them on others. It is the people’s arrogance that won’t allow accepting anything outside of their own conscious, which creates division. It’s the industries behind them that are worth taking a good look at.

Again, this isn’t about criticizing anyone’s beliefs, but I’m amazed at how quickly and easily we could be made to adopt a belief that we are told is universally true and part of our identity. Patriotism, nationalism and racism could be used as great examples of these “identities.”

And when you acknowledge everything, the whole structure of things beliefs, you may have a slight depressing feeling come over you. Because when you step back with a clear mind you’ll realize that all of these beliefs work in similar ways. Whether its religion or my own skepticism, we all notice what supports our beliefs and we disregard what doesn't.

After such a long and exciting journey, I find myself before another split road. When I turn to look back, I’m left thinking that all of these beliefs might absolutely be true. But it’s passion, not knowledge that teaches us to be certain of them. And the ability to question these things is part of what makes us truly human.

To Daniel...

Ah, Danny. The reckless one. I want to apologies for not being the type of brother I should have been all those years ago. I know you may have not needed me but I wasn’t there anyway. And if I was, I was only there to do and say what everyone else was doing and saying to you. A broken record.

I want you to understand that you have a very special gift. Your humor was always exaggerative and always tasteful. Don’t lose it. You can’t. Remember who you are. Remember where you come from. Don’t ignore those that uplift you. Be yourself and not someone else. Because who you need to be is who you already are. I’ll be there when you need me.

I love you, brother.

Addendum

We were saying how very important it is to bring about in the human mind, a radical revolution.

The crisis is a crisis in consciousness. A crisis that cannot anymore accept the old norms. The old patterns. The ancient traditions. And considering what the world is now, with all the misery, conflict, destructive brutality, aggression and so on.

Man, is still as he was. He’s still brutal, violent, aggressive, acquisitive, competitive and he’s built a society along these lines.

What we are trying, in all these discussions and talk here is to see if we cannot radically bring about a transformation of the mind. Not accept things as they are. But to understand it. To go into it. To examine it. Give your heart and your mind with everything that you have to find out a way of living differently.

But that depends on you and not somebody else. Cause in this there’s no teacher. No pupil. There’s no leader. There’s no guru. There’s no master. No savior. You yourself are the teacher and the pupil. You are the master. You are the guru. You are the leader. You are everything.

And to understand is to transform what is.

#1 On The List - GIVE Shit Away

1. give SHIT away.

i was running on the track when this idea came to me. though i had already started doing this, once added to the list, it became my top priority. giving things away is different than getting rid of things. because i pawned almost all my movies. i pawned all my albums and gave away whatever nobody wanted to buy. that's me getting rid of things. i don't know exactly why i'm doing this. i guess if i had to explain myself, my explanation will be that i don't want what i don't need.

if i make a painting, i'm giving it away. don't need it. if i find a good book that i enjoy or have enjoyed, i'm giving it away. accesories. knick-knacks. whatever. i'm not going to get rid of all my "stuff." just when it feels right. to whom it feels right. again, i have no expectations.

there's a sense of joy that comes out of this. i don't expect it but it comes.

The Point to the List

i've been going through an exciting and loving path in my life this whole year. and i plan to for all the years to come to evolve on this path. i feel lighter. i feel free from myself. i mean the limitations that my mind has set around my heart. i break through them. it's not difficult to explain nor is it difficult to transcend this energy towards someone else. everyone and anyone that has been around me during this period has felt this positive vibration in some way, shape or form. i've never been so in tuned with myself and at the same so out of myself. out of my limits as a human being.

breathe in. breathe out.

so i've constructed a "to-do-list" that is still in construction. it is a list that i've yet to find a point to. all i know is that i will follow through with whatever i put on it. and whatever i've put on it so far has come out my subconscious naturally. meaning i don't force them out and i don't decide when to add to the list prior to adding a step to the list. just like the list, the steps just are. no point. no meaning. no expectations.

i want to record this so i can read back and try to figure this whole thing out myself.

breathe in. breathe out.

By All Means

"intoxicate me. intertain me. make me forget who i am. make me forget what i'm suppose to do."

STOP!

distract yourself from these distractions. realize that you never live for yourself. there is always someone who depends on you to make the right decisions. your life has meaning for it carries a message. whatever message that may be. but whatever you do, make sure that it's yours and no one else's. that's a life in vain. still, that alone carries a message as well. for everything has meaning. even nothing. but i beg you, give us something.

who are you? what do you want? what's your message?

by all means intoxicate yourself. entertain yourself. live. just don't forget. cause then you're not living.

limbo is not a life. it's a decision.

make the right one.  remember.

www.wherewerewe.com

The Patriot Act. Remember how scared and mad we were of the Patriot Act? How “unconstitutional” it was? We were appalled by such balls of the government. We did not want them to be given access to us from all sides. As if we weren’t being fucked enough already.

Then, the “threat” dimed down. The enemy ran scarred into their caves and the situation was considered “controlled.” The Patriot Act was no longer spoken off and we Americans continued our every day consuming lives.

I don’t know why we complained so much about our privacy. If it was so damn important to us, why did we create multiple profiles that revealed everything about ourselves? Why did we let the world know where we live, where we went to school, what we do for a living, how we like our coffee? We gave them what they wanted, willingly. I saw it happen. It was beautiful.

We make videos of ourselves. So much that it becomes top priority for people. Posting videos is their life. Basically putting themselves under constant surveillance. Smile for the camera, bitch! Must we let the world know how we feel everyday as though it’s going to show sympathy.

“You gotta control your smiles and cries. Cause that’s all you have, and no one can take them away from you.” - Officer Hoyt (Training Day)

Sheep.

It doesn’t matter. There are no real connections online. They’re all artificial. Artificial until you meet them. And once you do, there’s no need to be online anymore. So why not make a real garden and shut the computer down already?

I don’t even want to tell you how annoying tweeter sounded on paper, let alone what it’s actually become.

But the world goes on, visible to anyone and we complain about privacy. It’s so valuable! Well, maybe not anymore. We forget that the internet can be a weapon, but people play with it. If you’re on it and you’re not learning something new or useful, GET OFF!! I don’t want to tell you that out loud. I don’t need to tell you that. And I am not criticizing you. I’m your subconscious, reminding you. And I will keep doing that every time you visit.

Where were we? Oh yeah, the Patriot Act…

Hey!

I want to tell you that I love you

I love that I know you

I love that I don’t know you too well

But I love that I know you enough to get to tell you,

That I love you

You're Doing Great!

negativity is never a sign of ultimate truth, even if it seems like your truth at the moment. it may arise out of an unhealed part of you. in fact, it always does.

that is why it is so important to get these negativities out, to release them. only by letting go of them - putting them out there, placing them in front of you -  can you see them clearly enough to know whether you really believe them.

we have all expressed feelings -  from fear to anger to rage - only to discover that, once having been expressed, they no longer reveal how we really feel.

in this way, feelings can be tricky. feelings are the langauge of the soul, but you must make sure you are listening to your true feelings and not some counterfeit model constructed in your mind.

A God In the Image of Men

return to spirituality. forget about religion.

because it is not good for you. understand that in order for organized religion to succeed, it has to make people believe they need it. in order for people to put faith in something else, they must first lose faith in themselves. so the first task of organized religion is to make you lose faith in yourself. the second task is to make you see that it has the answers you do not. and the third and most important task is to make you accept its answers without question.

if you question, you start to think! if you think, you start to go back to that Source Within. religion can't have you do that, because you're liable to come up with an answer different from what it has contrived. so religion must make you doubt your self; must make you doubt your own ability to think straight.

the problem for religion is that very often this backfires - for if you cannot accept without doubt your own thoughts, how can you not doubt the new ideas about God which religion has given you?

pretty soon, you even doubt His existence - which, ironically, you never doubted before. when you were living by your intuitive knowing, you may not have had It all figured out, but you definitely knew It was there!

it is religion which has created agnostics.

any clear thinker who looks at what religion has done must assume religion has no God! for it is religion which has filled the hearts of men with fear of God, where once man loved That Which Is in all its splendor.

it is religion which has ordered men to bow down before God, where once man rose up in joyful outreach.

it is religion which has burdened man with worries about God's wrath, where once man sought God to lighten his burden!

it is religion which told us to be ashamed of the body and its most natural functions, where once we celebrated those functions as the greatest gifts of life!

it is religion which thought you that you must have intermediary in order to reach God, where once you thought yourself to be reaching God by the simple living of your life in goodness and in truth.

and it is religion which commanded humans to adore God, where once humans adored God because it was impossible not to!

everywhere religion has gone it has created disunity - which is the opposite of God.

religion has seperated man from God, man from man, man from woman - some religions actually telling man that he is above woman, even as it claims God is above man - thus setting the stage for the greatest travesties ever foisted upon half the human race.

they listen to the men holding the bible. men  who are just like nations. power hungry. they do not like to share power, merely exercise it. and they have constructed a God in their image. a power hungry God. a God who does not like to share power but merely exercise it.

religion is true blasphemy for teaching us such things.

we did not not come here to strive and to struggle and to never "get there." nor did He send us on a mission impossible to complete.

believe in the goodness of God, and believe in the goodness of God's creation - namely, our Holy Selves.

Hammers Hurt

evolved beings have noticed that if you hit someone else witha a hammer, that person gets hurt. if you keep doing it, that person gets angry. if you keep getting him angry, he finds a hammer of his own and eventually hits you back. evolved beings therefore know that if you hit someone else with a hammer, you are hitting yourself with a hammer. it makes no difference if you have more hammers, or a bigger hammer. sooner or later you're going to get hurt!

the result is observable.

now nonevolved beings - primitive beings - observe the same thing. they simply don't care.

evolved beings are not willing to play "the one with the biggest hammer wins." primitive beings play nothing else.

The Free Market Economy!

Here’s how this exploitation works. The rich industrialists go into a country or an area where there is no work at all. Where the people are destitute. Where there is abject poverty. The rich set up a factory there, offering those poor people jobs - sometimes 10-, 12-, and 14-hour-a-day jobs-at substandard, if not to say subhuman, wages. Not enough, mind you, to allow those workers to escape their rat-infested villages, but JUST ENOUGH to let them live that way, as opposed to having no food or shelter at all.

And when they are called on it, these capitalists say, “Hey, they’ve got it better than before, don’t they? We’ve improved their lot! The people are taking the jobs, aren’t they? Why, we’ve brought them opportunity! And we’re taking all the risk!”

Yet how much risk is there in paying people 75 cents an hour to manufacture sneakers which are going to sell for $125 a pair?

Is this risk-taking or exploitation, pure and simple?

Such a system of rank obscenity could exist only in a world motivated by greed, where profit margin, not human dignity, is the first consideration.

Those who say that “relative to the standards in their society, those peasants are doing wonderfully!” are hypocrites of the first order. They would throw a drowning man a rope, but refuse to pull him to shore. They would brag that a rope is better than a rock.

Rather than raising the people to true dignity, these “haves” give the world’s “have-nots” just enough to make them dependent – but NOT ENOUGH to ever make them truly powerful. For people of true economic power have the ability to then impact, and not merely be subject to, “the system.” And that’s the last thing the creators of the system want!

So the conspiracy continues. And for most of the rich and powerful it is not a conspiracy of action, but a conspiracy of silence.

So now – go your way – and by all means say nothing about the obscenity of a socioeconomic system which rewards the corporate executive with a 70-million-dollar bonus for increasing sales of a soft drink, while 70 million people can’t afford the luxury of drinking the damn stuff – much less eating enough to stay healthy.

Don’t see the obscenity of it. Call this the world’s Free Market Economy, and tell everyone how proud you are of it.

A Personal Thing

All conflict arises from misplaced desire.

The only peace in the entire world that is sustaining is Internal Peace.

Let each person find peace within. When you find peace within, you also find that you can do without.

This means simply that you no longer need the things of your outside world. “Not needing” is a great freedom. It frees you, first, from fear: fear that there is something you won’t have; fear that there is something you have that you will lose; and fear that without a certain thing, you won’t be happy.

Secondly, “not needing” frees you from anger. Anger is fear, announced. When you have nothing to fear, you have nothing over which to be angry.

You are not angry when you don’t get what you want, because your wanting it was simply a preference, not a necessity. You therefore have no fear associated with the possibility of not getting it. Hence, no anger.

You are not angry when you see others doing what you don’t want them to do, because you don’t need them to do or not do any particular thing. Hence, no anger.

You are not angry when someone is unkind, because you have no need for them to be kind. You have no anger when someone is unloving, because you have no need for them to love you. You have no anger when someone is cruel, or hurtful, or seeks to damage you, for you have no need for them to behave any other way, and you are clear that you cannot be damaged.

You do not even have anger should someone seek to take your life, because you do not fear death.

When fear is taken from you, all else can be taken from you and you will not be angry.

You know inwardly, intuitively, that everything you’ve created can be created again, or – more importantly – that it doesn’t matter.

When you find Inner Peace, neither the presence nor the absence of any person, place or thing, condition, circumstance, or situation can be the Creator of your state of mind or the cause of your experience of being.

It's simple physics. You cannot experience that what you're not the vibration of.

This does not mean that you reject all things of the body. Far from it. You experience being fully in your body and the delights of that, as you never have before.

Yet your involvement with things of the body will be voluntary, not mandatory. You will experience bodily sensations because you choose to, not because you are required to in order to feel happy or justify sadness.

This one simple change – seeking and finding peace within – could, were if undertaken by everyone, end all wars, eliminate conflict, prevent injustice, and bring the world to everlasting peace.

There is no other formula necessary, or possible. World peace is a personal thing!

What is needed is not a change of circumstance, but a change of consciousness.